Door

Life is full of doors.
These doors could be some obstacle, barrier, curses in your life.
Our life is just like a quest of searching and seeking for the right key to the right door.
Every door opened your area will get bigger and there will be more place to explore.
The bigger the room gets the more difficult to find the next key to another door.

Sometime you misplace the key
Sometime you throw the key away
Sometime you just get too tired to find the key

and... Some doors is just not to be open.......................................

Recently the doors in my life is starting to open by itself. Am I am having more and more different view of everything around me?

Work: i am opening the doors to my boss approval in me. My fasting had make me more focus in what i am doing. Everything is great around, i am moving closer and closer to the vision i had. I know it will not be easy but i am moving, "seeking" for the key......

Haha "bringer of happiness" and a "seeker" hahaaa. Ros this sound very familiar ?

Many thing is flowing in my mind. i feel that there is so many things to do.
so many things to achieve.
My faith is strong, i will destroy all the doors! and break thru even futher !
For you i will do it, i will glorified you!

DONT stop GO find the key of life..............................

Super Randomness

I am in a super randomness mode now.
Like always, i would said so many things had happen, too lazy and too tired to keep my blog updated.
SO be rdy for a series of randomness and messiness..!!

Where should i start.. die la lol...

okok as usual work work work.
The pace in my work is getting faster and faster, or maybe i am getting slower and slower lol. After CNY, everyday i had been working at least 10 hours straight... But comparing to my boss, i am still having a life. Since over the weekend i had been hanging out over butterfactory til 6am.. Still trying hard to maintain a healthy lifestyle.

I am a lazy person to things that i am not gd at or thing that simply doesnt interest me.
In order to make myself hardworking, I force myself to take up responsibility and role in the company.
Even thought i havnt got the recognition from my boss, i had spread my influence through out the company. initially, I wasnt in the organizing team for the company DND. But after my role in the CNY event and charity, i was somehow included in the organizing committee.

At first i thought WTH again... i dont even have time to do my own stuff.
On second thought, it is another opportunity for me to climb up the corporate ladder. This time round i must be able to cope well on my own work too. soon i am going to be no life..

Other then tat... still working hard .. drink less be healthy ba lol

light and darkness

it has been quite some time since i blog.

My life is getting busier everyday and somehow i am becoming happier too.
I could be a workaholic.

My work in Phillip is getting heavier as the time passes IT IS ONLY 2month plus wth.. Heavy in terms of the amount understanding i need to have in the financial world. So many stuff i dont even have a slightest bit of understanding. In term of my area of work i had gotten a hang of it, and now my daily work could be settle in the afternoon. Now i trying to settle my department website to do abit of marketing work for our product.
I am quite delighted that my manager let me talk to an external client today, i remember the first time i talk to the client i kana scold like mad.. Hey i had never been in this line ho.
She did correct a few of my mistake, practise makes perfect... i think i am ready to handle external client now. (external clients are dangerous they complain to MAS lol)

Side track abit, my calling smoking skill is really gd. 9 out of 10 times i can trick someone thinking that i am some sale person calling them lol. These 2 months of my calling time is like my normal whole year of calling time Wahahha.

Some bad thing happen, i guess i was too rush and i didnt pass my test... Got to buck up in reading and studying.. a LONG LONG WAY TO GO.

Had KPI session with bunch of directors today, why the hell am i ask to sit in...

But i had been pushing myself to the limit. I took up alot of extra work. Or you could say that my current "Yes" nature is giving me alot of work.

I was informed last week Friday to be the OIC of the CNY Event..Happy I had the favour of the lord!!!With such little time, and little man power.. IT seems impossible at first.
Within the first few days, I got to know alot of directors.
i even got the favour of the most powerful woman in my company..
Proven I am a auntie killer !! WAHAHAH...

And most of the stuff had been settled and organized by 2day.
Another happy things is that i always wanted to do something good for the public, ever since i CHANGE. . .. lol
Currently i am also organizing a charity drive for the Haiti earthquake Victims...
I really hope i could collect a huge fund and help those people over there..HEHE

Lots of stuff to learn lots of stuff to do.. hope i would be able to do more to help and serve more people hehe .. thats the vision i had now .. and more to come.

And why did i name my entry as light and darkness..
I understand darkness: 7sins... experience...
I used my anger and revengeful strength to push through my starting point of my life..
it doesnt feel gd even i manage to climb up lol..
Been through the darkest moment of my life..

I understand light beautiful life of being positive and nice..
It pull me through my darkest moment of my life ..

Now i am dangling in between. some words, some ones is interfering my believe ..
i feel some how tired sad .. tired of human..

Some out there may have heard of the story about lucifer, the lord of darkness, some call him the devil himself..
Lucifer was an fallen angel.
one of a few story that i seen was describing that Lucifer was one of the most power angel. He love god alot but he despise human. Man are full of flaws, full of sin...
He dont understand why god love Man so much, he dont understand why. End up he disobey the lord and become a fallen angel..

Some how i understand how Lucifer feels.. hahah
I will still try my best to love just like how my lord loves his people.. But i am a christian of my own views no one and nothing can change how i think.

I do feel one of my dearest friend, if he see this..
i would want him to learn more about chirstianity... it hurts that he had so much misunderstanding ..

BUSY

NOt time for blogging .. busy ... tests..

Taking all the trading qualification.. CFMAS ...
and tmr morning i got SBL test from my boss..
i try to squeese sometime soon to write..

HEEHEH
WORLD PEACE !!

oo i got a book from fu and sab.. "I KISS DATING GoodBYE"
Hmm sign? lol... we will see...

Nitez friends and everyone hehe

WIsdom... Good or evil?

Before i write, this is not a emo post lol... i no longer emo!!! ok .. hahaha
Just kidding... it is just...
A single thought had been wondering around my mind for the last few weeks..

This question: IS wisdom is good or bad?
Is knowledge good of bad.?

We human had been constantly seeking knowledge.. wanting to know more...

But if you think of it, it is knowledge that tell us what is good and bad..
And it is bad, evil that feeds on wisdom.
The 7 sins feeds on wisdom... it is because of knowledge and wisdom evil is born...

Viewing from a religious point of view, when god created Adam and eve.
Eve was tempted by the snake and bought the apple from the forbidden tree to Adam..
By eating the apple, they open the Pandora box, Adam and eve grew wisdom, they know what is shame, they know that they are naked... They gain the knowledge of lust, greed, gluttony, wrath, sloth, pride and envy... And thus evil is born....

And it is also because of knowledge, we know all this is evil, and those who had consciouses will try to prevent and stop themselves from committing sins...

Therefore i got a conclusion, that wisdom and knowledge is just like a double edge sword...
can be use for the good or for the bad ...

So is that the case that human are born evil, and they use knowledge for the bad..
or is that the case that human are born good, and it is knowledge and wisdom that corrupt their mind ...

if a baby or a kid who knows nothing, completely innocent, kills maybe a cat or a dog, but he don't know it is right or wrong, but just fun to himself, he would just laugh and walk away.
IS he in the wrong, is he evil... it is us with the wisdom/knowledge that judge it, and feel that it is completely sick...
but to the kid, it is not wrong...

chicken and egg? hmm or there is really an answer ..
guess this will be my first question that i will ask god when i go heaven lol!!!

just too many things is happening in my mind now ...
hmm lots of stuff... many things.... hahah wisdom and knowledge..
other then this, my career is moving well..
i am taking over most of HOD work.. i even too over her seat physically.. lol!

long way to go, tired but i am excited to explore what good things that lies ahead of me in the future hehe..

back to work

It had been a really busy week... i still dont have the time to write about my taiwan trip..
The photos that i post on facebook should explain abit haha...

Tired... so much to do, and yet i am happy to go work...

i will try to write something about taiwan when i got the energy.. hahha

I am back!

I am back from my painful and tiring, yet enjoyable 17days of reservice and my taiwan trip!

thinking back i wonder... nothing is impossible lol!

IT will take sometime for me to write my whole experience.
There will be alot photos too hehe